29.9.07

wow its a really exhausting saturday.i started my day sooooo early! (consider darn early for a weekend morning.) I want my beddddd!! -.- but ohwell theres more important stuff than slpeeing! thats it;NET CARN 'o7! :) weeees! we got 3rd for banner and 4th for overall netball {: not bad right! WELL DONE 409! today is also the last interfoun ballet class i ever would have in my life.oh man.i will miss all my ballet friends and all those who dance together and go through with me the times of the most tough training ballet classes.but theres a goodbye to everything in this world.so heh.goodbye my fellow dancers!

Deeda died.so i created a new pet,its a guy again.zomg.my tao2hua1yun4 is really strong man.i called it "HAPPY!" ahhaa xD oh i was late for Edge today again.sigh.im always late.i should learn to manage my time properly. My day was going apparenly okay so far until two hours ago when everything fell apart.not totally.but my heart flew away.goodbye my dear <3...

28.9.07

theres no other sports i can do,other than running.so audrey the mad girl,shall run and run and run. okay straight to the point.I ran today! ten rounds around the stadium,haha actually i tried all kinds of running,running can be a rather "ahem" interesting sport,in case you arent aware.Cos there are so many places you can run,be it outdoor or indoor, there are different places to run.so fun,err right?

deeda is growing at a super fast and healthy rate,thanks to my intensive care and immense love,its gonna be an adult soon (: but it 'll leave me when its ready to find a mate and give birth. okay fine,since mine is a guy,it will not give birth.but it will impregnate the other female tamagotchi and leave its baby in my care and fly away with that bitch.ohwell.no filial piety involve in keeping a tamagotchi i guess.but its the only bad point what.after all,its so fun to play and keep me company when im bored! (:

27.9.07

i went running today,shin is generally healing well and fast,except its gotten a bit more swollen after running,but its fine. right,shin? weather has been really emo today,whats with all the raining,its making me sleepy.tamagotchi is super fun.YAY! i went to reset it today.So now this egg is a male,been born since 6am this morning.and currently sleeping now.its quite cute this boy here.but always sick.and full of shit.but ohwell.its been sleeping since my dinner,hopefully it continues sleeping when i am sleeping.

Half an hour ago,there was a big hoo-haa in the house,regarding handphone bills.Money.zomg.it all boils down to money.who says blood was thicker than water?

26.9.07

tamagotchi is love!
total love.i love it.so cute.so fun.but it can be darn irritating.the way it needs MY attention.zomg.i feel like a mummy all of a sudden.teehee.but its really adorable.hahahahha.anyway its quite ex la.and i have to pay for it myself.i didnt bother to ask my parents for money to get it,since its kind of my "extra" wants,they will not sponsor.im quite sure.lol.anyway i didnt go school today again! rarrh.i wanted to go one.but my wound was hurting so much last night and i overslept this morning,so i ended up ponning netball prac and school.hahah.what a pig right,MISS AUDREY TAN!

I went to poly to have my wound clean today and my wound is quite okay but theres swelling.i learnt how to care for my stitched up wound too! Cotton balls are so fluffy.they are used to clean my wound with saline solution.but those cotton balls are so darn fluffy.i feel like doing an artwork all of a sudden,what sudden inspiration (: fluffy white clouds in the blue blue sky.weees! toodles; i went dancing despite my wound.i cant live without ballet.no ballet,audrey is sad.so im happy today! YAY! {: though it hurts when i point my toes and stretching,but im willing to risk all for dance.

okay shall satisfy ur thirst for more grotesque pictures,presenting you my stitched up wound {:


my $39.95 love! {:

25.9.07

coookieeesssss for loveeeeeeee {{:
i didnt go school today so i made cookies to kill boredom,which is plenty of boredom btw : /
pictures are below!







but then,i cheated(: this is proof of it.rarrhs.

24.9.07

my leg is on its way to recovey! jiayou shin,way to go! {: but it will leave a scar,two scars to be exact.no nice legs anymore.im so sad.i went school today although i got MC for a whole week! im so hardworking,such a guai girl (: and i think im putting on fats,cos i cant walk,cant run,cant dance,cant do any sort of physical exercise and im fed with like very tonic food, i dunn wanna grow horizontal : /

and i suddenly feel so slack.I dont know why i feel like that.but i felt as if theres some power that wants me study.For Higher Chinese Os thats it.yea and i think i must follow my intituition,it never goes wrong,i dont want my chinese to commit suidcide for which i will be terribly sorry for.So i shall study,as soon as im ready {:


total waste of my precious time during super boring photonics options.this is a better way of spending time.uh-huh/

23.9.07

hellohellohello.i think i walk around too much, the stitched up wound is bleeding, as in the white patches that are covering my wounds are stained abit red,so i guess its bleeding inside which is pretty bad,hopefully the review tmr at polyclinic will be okay(: God Bless man! (:

THANKS EVERYONE FOR CARING AND PRAYING!(:

22.9.07

i had 4 stitches today.my first time stuck in a hospital for so long.
I went to Changi General Hospital today, at 3 plus after lunch for some emergency cos my wound got even worse.The skin on my skin which was cut got even more infected by late afternoon.Basically i know you are confused, so here goes MY story(: ..

I went for netball shooting prac in the morning,went to Raffles City to get donuts from Donut Factory for Tinghui's burfdae prezzie! (: so nice of me right.but who knows.who knows,when going up the escalator,so excited and so looking forward to the gorgeous donuts,someone in a hurry to rush to dont know which bloody place,push me,then i tripped and kind of fell, and the sharp pointed metal ends of the escalator pierce into my shin area then it started bleeding.The person didnt notice but i guess its my fault,since i was over-obsessing with the donuts haha and not careful.But when i saw blood,i was like "------" My first instinct was to rush to the washroom and wash the wound with water over and over and over again (like Lady Macbeth,uh-uh-huh to lit students), and dry it with the paper napkins. So i thought all was well and over, went to take mrt down to tampines for ballet, where i can pass Tinghui her donuts! (: but the wound never stop bleeding. sigh. A lady in the mrt even pitied me and offer me her plaster (: nice ah-soh.thanks.ahhaha.okay im so mean.

Anyway,cut long story short cos im getting so naggy here and i dont wanna my blog post to be super long,the wound got even more "bleedi-fied" after ballet,but i tot it was just a simple injury so i went home for lunch.but later the meat inside my wound start POPPING out and my mum insisted i go see doctor.ohwell,i listen to parents,be a good girl,presenting Audrey to you(: i went to doctor,but doctor "chase" me away to hospital! He said its too deep and serious.So i went to Changi General Hospital,waited bloody long at the A&E dep,had a Anti-Tentanus-Toxoid injection into my muscle on left-arm,now my muscle hurts like hell,cant really mobilize my arm too.Had x-ray for bone fracture cos the wound was inflammated and swelling was seen. Ended up i need 4 stitches in the Operating Theatre,it was the OT that totally have me freaked out.So scary.So cold and hard inside.So here i am, with MC for a week,restraints from physical exercise for a month,no ballet? im gonna jump down the building.

21.9.07

hello ugly ugly world.You are so fucking ugly.Life is so fucking disappointing.fuck it man.boohooos to all the failures,losers,shittybooboo.endless perceptions of facades.i cant see my future,so bleak and so sad.

i played tennis with schoolmates after lessons today! teehee,got sunburn a lil' cos the sun was so friggin' hot at twelve noon.ahha we werent supposed to play actually,but who cares man.we kind of "stole" rackets from PE dep cos the door to the equipment room wasnt locked! But after playing when we were gonna return them,the door apparently was locked.so we used our brains and left the rackets and balls outside.so smart(: blahblahblah.im lazy to blog.

Bloody people just ruin my bloody day.AS USUAL.i dont think you could say i am a very happy girl.

20.9.07

yay im so happy and relaxed and i feel as if im on cloud nine! (: cos my long-feared/awaited ballet exam is finally over, its seriously a piece of shit off my mind.my mum was totallly nice and just super super nice today.she took leave from work and accompanied me to ballet exam,as early as 7am in the morning. love you loads man. you make my heart break and piece,but what a nice mum for today at least(: i rate myself pretty okay for exam i guess,though i had some minor screwups,thanks to butterflies flying around in my belly.shooo! nervous,of cos.but heh.its all over.im not gonna think about it.byebyebye interfound,i hope i pass, perhaps it would then be really over. but im definitely not anticipating results,not so soon. Im gonna work hard for the coming grade 7 exam! {:

19.9.07

im getting the fright.the thought of being in a ballet examination room with 3 other strangers.total strangers who learn different things from me and who have different standard of brains and different techniques.im gonna feel so lonely and alone and so scaredddd...

All the effort i have put in for the past few months in preparation for this interfoundation exam must be expressed tomorrow during my exam, okay audrey?(: promise yourself u will do ur best and not let urself and ur expectations down.i love you audrey! go and show the world ur pretty legs! weeees!

18.9.07

i cry.i weep.but those good old days are gone.its time to wave and say byebyebyebyebye.i will always miss you guys! {: we will excel in our own ways and may our paths cross all over again like the past few months.

shucks.i will be dead in 1 day and 2 nights' time.Thurs morning thats it.im really really scared.MY INTERFOUND BALLET EXAM! {: why has it come so fast? im not really prepared yet but my fellow frens almost (as in almost) all have taken theirs! teehee,left with Germ's one which is tmr! havefunGERM! (: if u ever come here n read my blog. Jiaxin's exam is on the last day of all our exams! cool right, she'd be the only one going for lessons and on her own! ><>

i find life tiring.audrey is such a poor girl.she never gets much rest.my schedule is full and pack and theres no breathing space for me.i'd love a holiday.a breakaway from all the responsibilities and workload in life.YAY! i wish..

16.9.07

sigh.the past has come back to haunt me.sometimes i just do not wish to move on.我不想忘记你。but we all grow up and get on in life.im still learning to accept that it has all become past.PAST TENSE thats it.
okay i shall stop being so emo.AHH.

and fcuk.my dad has just grounded me.on the worst term audrey tan ever could have.*no suntanning until he says okay* all cos of some stupid stuff.sorry inconvenient to reveal here.teehee.

14.9.07

不能说的秘密 (Bu Neng Shuo De Mi Mi)

12.9.07

i totally screwed up my Math test today.its on differentiation.out of 46 marks,20marks were left undone.im dead.i never want the paper back thanks,i hope.it will disappear somehow and get lost! teehee.so brilliantly smart of me! {:

teeeheeeteeeheee.i hate my life.it sucks somehow.it always end up sucking.why is this so????????????

i wanna shine for you,and be a light to this world {: familiar?

11.9.07

school started yesterday,beginning of options.an interesting journey? well we shall see. haha. i got SHINING UPON A HILL {for language arts}, BRIDGES FOR ENGAGEMENT {for social studies} & PRINCIPLE OF PHOTONICS {for science}.sounds fun? i dont know;cos so far i only had photonics and its so dry till i can die.hahha.and the language arts option is about American Lit,poems,slavery,freedom; sounds to me another boring subject!

9 more days to ballet exam.rofl.im scared.i had ballet lesson just now,6.30pm,its kind of late and lethargic and atmosphere was so tense inside class,prolly due to the fact that exams are like everywhere now,i feel so stressed.even ms pang looks stressed up.my pointe work sucks but i tried my best already.and my toes are bloody painful.my left big toe had a blister.very torturing! but whenever i imagine myself on the pretty en pointe,i just feel motivated to overcome the pain and show the pointed toes.teehee xD

im feeling really emo nowadays too.get emotional so easily.maybe too much free time that my mind wanders everywhere,which can really be a bad thing.i got Math test on differentiation tomorrow! : / so freaky.i havent finish studying yet,and here i am blogging.hahaha.no time to study cos i spend too much time emo-ing.hhaha.

teeeheeee.

8.9.07

yay ballet open house is over!
let the pictures do the talking okaay(:

7.9.07

4th day of ballet;
and tomorrow is openhouse.openhouse ahhh!
im quite scared;with so many pairs of eyes and so many parents and audiences.haha i believed i will most prolly get stage fright, DIEDIEDIE.

sometimes,life is a blunder.audrey is disappointed.
Bury the birth within a graveyard of my sweet sorrows,
Forget all the lies which are embedded within the mist,
Ponder ones existence from the souls body and midst,
Hanging on to the simple thoughts of life's depression,
Please forgive me my lord for my thoughts of aggression.

Shatter my angelic dreams for becoming man and wife,
For remember through beauty I am your precious life,
Mistakes are made from the senses of deceitful lust,
Though I feel betrayed I shall fight through the disgust,
As I give you my heart and hope not to bleed again.

Let the wire around my heart choke my soul to death,
Though I know I'll breathe when the seed becomes lost,
For an affair which destroyed my sanity was the overall cost,
As the memory's have become faded into black and white,
I'll hold on to the flames which kept our hearts ignite.

6.9.07

thurs**3rd consecutive day of ballet! {:
this blog is public.so i cant write private and exact stuff.everything written here is just a blur of thoughts and emotions?



oh come on.i do miss some stuff that i never treasured before in the past because i used to have it. Now that im losing, i actually missssssss it rarh.

5.9.07

THANKS JESUS! {:
im starting to gain back my dancing strength.whees!
training is pretty intensive this week.tues,wed,thurs,fri,sat! but im halfway through it seems.its wed! woooots.

snowqueen,is really nice.

im back in action! went suntanning today.haha and i feel so charged up.perhaps i was a plant in my previous life,love you loads my solar energy!

4.9.07

okay fine.i know its wierd posting twice a posts in a day.but well.
the mistress calls the shots here?
anyway i just danced a while ago, first in five days.and i really felt out of place you know,i totally lost all my bearings.my balance,my straight knees,my pointed toes,my turnouts,my strength?
its all gone.
but i will try real hard.since my exam in 16 days time;

20 SEPT!

Daddy Jesus loves me;He will help me out this time,wont you?(:
my leg strength wont be gone like the thing i have lost forever.
♡once again,it reminds me hes gone with the wind : /




haha sometimes i still feel so childish.when will i ever grow up?
there's a nightmare in my closet,
i still afraid of creepycrawlies they are dirty little horrid things..
one appear in my roomie last night and i nearly got a heart attack;.
rarrrhs; audrey hasnt been dancing for the past 7 days!
cant wait for tonight {:

3.9.07

You are gone,i used to love you.
You are gone,thats the plain truth.
You are gone,never coming back.
You are gone,my new heart's black.
But since you are gone,i guess it's okay,to find new love the same way,
is it alright?
You've got me sad,so you'll pay for what you did.
You're paying.
You're gone.

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